8. July 2008 by Patrick Budowski.

Is there a cure for alcoholism? Yes and no. While there is a way to put your drinking into remission, there is no cure for the disease, meaning you can not expect to drink again. Why this is I do not know, but I have tried to drink again after I had stopped for 6 months, with the exact same things happening again. So While you can arrest your drinking, you can not stop the disease. However the good news it unlike Cancer, you have control over your disease. Pretty simple don’t drink, do the next right thing, and pray, does not matter if you pray to a tree, you need to have some higher power, to turn all this crap in your head over too. If not there is no reason to even try to stop drinking. (Being a bit harsh here, there is always a reason to try)

Some normal people think that stopping drinking is easy, for them to feel anything for you and what you are going through is very tough. Even family members can feel this way. So keep that in mind, and never get into an argument that you can win. Since the only way they will change their minds, is through education. Don’t blame them, just smile and keep doing what you are doing to keep from drinking.

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8. July 2008 by Patrick Budowski.

For me drinking is something I can not do, think of someone who is allergic to peanuts. Bad things happen to me and people around me when I drink. At times I would get loaned some new bracelets most people refer to those as handcuffs. The other thing that happens is I don’t stop drinking for awhile, Generally till my body hurts real bad, or I run out of money. I have not drank for 5 years and have had more fun, (I am sure part of it is because I can recall some of the last 5 years) then I had while I was drinking.
What normal people think when I tell them I don’t drink, their first response is to say they are sorry. My question is why are you sorry? I am the one who has the problem, drink lots for me.

One problem I have always had with those normal people is they don’t know how to drink. Having one or two is not drinking, that just asking for a DUI. If your going to drink go all out till you pass out. It’s what real drinkers do. Of course I am kidding.

My point is while alcoholism is called a disease, it can be a great disease to have if your one of the lucky ones who arrest your disease. (meaning you no longer drink)
Stop drinking is the easy part for those of us who surrendered, the hard part is learning to live as close to a normal person as I can. When your drinking like I was, you become very selfish, and that’s a hard habit to break. The other hard thing is wanting it now. Instant gratification. Be it drinks, sex, toy or whatever I wanted at the time. One good thing about getting older is sex is not as important to me, as it was when I was younger. Now if I was in love with the Lady then sex would go back up on the list, however if I am not in love with the person, its reminds me of work.

Just some thoughts that came into my head today.

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